Dharmist in Progress

"Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." ~ Einstein

Day Four – Musings While Awaiting Sunrise

on May 13, 2012

Well, my fiance had to go into work at 5am today.  I woke up at 4:30, took him to work a bit later, and now I’m home alone.  My parents are out of town.  There’s baseball on the television, but I have it muted.  Honestly, if you’re not into baseball, you wouldn’t understand why I left the tv on during my meditation.  If you are, then you know:

Baseball is meditation, in its own special way.  There is  nothing like the feeling of settling down to watch the game with my dad and fiance.  It’s like the rest of the world is put on hold.  So, the tv stayed on.

I’ve meditated for a few minutes while listening to a mantra on YouTube that I discovered thanks to Andrew Bowen of Project Conversion (more on him later), about Shiva as Nataraja, the Lord of the Dance.  This is what really attracted me to Shiva in the first place.  I can close my eyes and see him dancing, creating and destroying simultaneously through something as beautiful as dance.  It’s alluring, mysterious…I can’t explain the feeling I get when I think about it.

At this point, I’ve spoken (aka butchered, I have to find a pronunciation guide) the Gayatri Mantra, and I’m waiting for the sun to rise a bit more before I begin the sun salutation yoga.  This all feels strange to me, and yet welcome and familiar.  It’s as if I’ve always been meant to do this, and simply never tried before.

Later, I will attempt to find decent pictures of Shiva and Durga to print out and use during my prayers and meditation.  I might add more as I learn about the many gods and goddesses, but I also know that focusing my energy on those two will be the most productive for me.

Oh, and I’ll write the other half of my In the Beginning… post, describing how I came to the decision to practice Hinduism without telling many people.  Yay.


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