Dharmist in Progress

"Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." ~ Einstein

Baby Steps

on May 21, 2012

That new job feeling.  When everything that you do makes you feel like a bumbling idiot.  You’re taking in so much information at once that you find yourself unable to master any of the techniques.  During down time, you have no idea what you’re supposed to be doing, and follow your boss or trainer like a poor lost puppy.

You just feel…dumb.

I’ve been experiencing this in my new job for a few days now, and I’ve realized that this is exactly how I feel in my new religion, as well. The inability to recognize the things that I already know, the things I have yet to learn, and the unnecessary information getting in the way of everything.


For most of my life, I’ve found it confusing that people don’t understand the difference between stupidity and ignorance.  Yet, it’s suddenly apparent to me that I’m being a hypocrite.

Ignorance is a lack of knowledge.  It simply means that you have to learn more on the subject to fully understand it, whether you’re aware of that or not.

When I struggle at my new job, it’s not because I can’t do something, it’s that I don’t know how.  I have to remain aware of that and not become frustrated.  The same applies to my conversion.  I’m not going to magically wake up one day and find myself to be a yoga master fluent in Sanskrit.  This is going to take a lot of time and effort on my part, and I have to accept that.

I’m a perfectionist, with patience issues.

I have a very long road ahead of me.



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