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Labels, Schmabels

Well, folks, I’ve come to a conclusion.

I’m Hindu.

I’m not Hindu.

I also am/am not many other things.

I’m a very spiritual person, and believe things from many different religions to be true.  However, due to an inherent desire to find a label for myself (read: fit in), I found the one most suited to my beliefs and claimed it.

However, it’s not that simple for me.  And I’m okay with that.  I have to find my own special path, and it will take a lot of trial and error.

I’m keeping the blog title, of course, but I won’t necessarily refer to myself with specific terms anymore.  I am, definitely, a work in progress.

 

I also believe I may be an empath, but that’s a discussion for another day.

Namaste.

Outside Approval

Why is it so important to be validated by other people?

Why can’t we simply accept ourselves for who we are and go on with our lives?

The herd mindset that human beings carry through life is simultaneously one of the most beneficial and damaging things about us. Our need to please others and be made aware that they are pleased with us. Without it, imagine the places we could go!

…And how lonely we would feel.

It’s why so many people have a “prove myself” complex. Not to improve their life, but to prove its worth to someone else.

It’s sad, really.

Pain heals; chicks dig scars; glory lasts forever.

– “The Replacements”

Mortality

The deer on the side of the road two nights ago.

 

Surrounded by other deer.

 

Looking at it.  Pacing.

 

Like they didn’t understand why it wouldn’t get up.

 

The tears running down my face.  That’s why I’m a vegetarian.

Finding my Path?

Okay, so I know it’s pretty hit or miss how many or few of you are actually Hindu.

But, in case anyone who reads this does tread this path, I need help.

I’ve lost my way.

I’m still a vegetarian, and more and more a pacifist, but that’s it.

I’m not meditating or reading, or anything else.  I know that basically the entire point is that I make my own path, but I could really use a map or a street sign.

I’ve wandered off into the hardships of a full time job and everyday stress, and lost my spiritual way.

Any advice?

The Little Things

New rule in life:

Never complain about the little things, because you never know who has it worse than you.

It’s something you never really notice, unless you’re the person who has it worse.

“If A = success in life, then A = x + y + z. Work is x, y is play, and z is keeping your mouth shut.”

~ Albert Einstein

Project Conversion Book Out…and FREE!

So, if you follow my blog, you should know about Project Conversion.  Andrew inspired me to seek my own path, and I have his site listed on the sidebar —–>

Anywho, he wrote a book about his incredible spiritual journey!

Buy it for $14.99 here at Amazon

-or-

Download the Kindle version here for free until Midnight Eastern Time, February 6th!  You may or may not be able to convert Kindle books to other formats, I really wouldn’t know, as a Nook owner, so you should do some research or something.  Ahem.

So yeah, huge inspiration, buy his book.

Namaste.

Yoga + Candles = Happy

I joined a gym a few days ago, in hopes of getting more healthy.

I lost 40lbs last year, and my Fibromyalgia symptoms have decreased dramatically; so I’m hoping that building my muscles will help even more.

But what I’m really excited about is that Wednesday there’s yoga with candles and aromatherapy.

Not every Wednesday, unfortunately, but it’s still super exciting.

So, yay 🙂

Positive post!

“Yoga teaches us to cure what need not be endured and endure what cannot be cured.” ~ B.K.S. Iyengar

Namaste.

Creepy Stalker Dreams…or Sleeping Beauty

I feel you, Johanna,
I feel you.
I was half convinced I’d waken,
Satisfied enough to dream you.
Happily I was mistaken,
Johanna.
I’ll steal you, Johanna,
I’ll steal you.

“Johanna” – Sweeney Todd: the Demon Barber of Fleet Street

I’ve had this song stuck in my head off and on all day.  I lovingly refer to it as “the creepy stalker song.”

Life has seemed rather dream-like lately.

I’m a newlywed, pursuing a rather taboo religious path, and I recently lost a friend.  It’s a bit too much for reality to bear right now.

So, my brain, being its normal weird self, thinks of Sweeney Todd.

A normal girl’s brain would go more this route:

But, if there’s anything you’ve learned, O My Brothers*, it’s that I am far from a “normal” girl.

I cope with things in odd ways, and so I’m far more scatterbrained than normal.

C’est la vie.

Namaste.

* Vague A Clockwork Orange reference.

One Foot in Front of the Other

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

– J. R. R. Tolkien

I’ve been going through a hard time lately.  A friend passed away, very unexpectedly.

I’ve never lost anyone before, so I can’t even comprehend that he’s gone, and not coming back.

It’s like a nightmare.

And so, I’ve thrown myself into The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim and Pride and Prejudice, and I’m just coping a little bit at a time.

So, that’s why I’ve been a bit silent.

Namaste.